dramaqueen

77: samahan naman ako ng sino man jan :)

2005-08-14T13:26:00.000+04:30

The Philippine Society of Pediatric Surgeons presents:
"Mag BAND-ing tayo para sa mga bata!"
A fundraiser concert for the benefit of the children in Sikap-Bata Foundation

Main bands: Sugarfree, Imago and Cambio
Featuring: BIT, TriggerBliss, Empty Siren Boulevard and Tutuband

When: August 18, 2005 (Thursday), 6:30pm-12midnight (Q.C Holiday the next day!Ü)
Where: U.P. Bahay ng Alumni

Ticket Price: 150 Php, inclusive of raffle and refreshments

*nais kong pumunta, :) baka gusto mo kong samahan. :) please? kahit sino. :) text nioko or punta kayong III-4, sigaw niyo sa may pinto, "diyosa! may kasama ka na!" niahaha. seryoso, samahan nioko, anyone? :)

76: asan ka dito? :)

2005-08-13T21:30:00.000+04:30

The Rules:
1.) Write something about 15 different people.
2.) You can NOT say who they are.
3.) If someone asks you which one is about them, you can NOT tell.

1. sobrang miss ko na tong taong to. nakilala ko siya nung first year, magkaklase kami sa I-1, tapos partly nung II-1, pero nalipat siya sa II-9. sobrang nalungkot ako nun. :( kabarkada ko din siya at besty. hindi na kami masyadong nagkakasama ngayon kaya wala nakong masyadong alam sa kanya, pero nevertheless, isa siya sa mga pinakamahal kong tao sa mc. :)

2. grabe yung utak namin nitong taong to, halos pareho na kami ng mga naiisip. kakilala ko na siya mula nung gradeschool, schoolmate, busmate at teammate ko. :) tapos, nung highschool, pareho kaming lumipat sa mc, at busmates kami ulit. kasama ko din siya sa PETA, at sa paglalakad at pagmumunimuni sa UP. sobrang importante nito sakin, hindi ako buo kung wala tong taong to.

3. ito ang besty ko. madalas kaming hindi magkaintindihan pero kahit anong mangyari alam naman naming mahal na mahal namin ang isa't-isa. kasama ko to sa pagtambay sa jasms nung mga panahong isinusuka na namin ang mga bago naming eskwelahan, oo, dadating kami sa jasms araw araw kahit may exams kinabukasan. sa kanila ako nagpasko last year, parte na nga talaga ako ng pamilya. siya ang nagmulat sakin sa maraming kabalastugan. :) bwahahahaha. kainuman ko din to lagi, chaka kamurahan pag bangag na kami pareho. mahal na mahal ko to, sobra.

4. minahal ko tong taong to ng sobra. nung first year, siya yung naging mundo ko. naging matalik kami magkaibigan pero minahal ko siya ng higit pa don *eeek, cheesy.* tapos ngayon, malapit lang siya sakin, nagkikita parin kami araw araw, pero wala nang koneksyon. nakakahinayang.

5. nakasama ko tong taong to sa PETA, siya yung inidolo ko nung unang beses akong mag workshop sa teen theater. :) hindi ko naisip na magiging malapit kami sa isa't isa. :) sobrang bangag ng taong to, iyakin naman. konek? :) siya yung parang ate ko, na kahit magulo yung mga sinasabi parang parating may sense. siya yung may jowa dun sa lalaking gwapo na magaling kumanta at mag gitara. :) yakap nito yung hahanapin mo pag magulo yung mundo mo. miss ko na to, sobra.

6. kaklase ko to sa I-1. naging seatmate ko. :) certified fashionista siya, as in pareho kami ng taste sa mga bagay bagay. :) naging kaklase ko siya ulit sa III-4 at minahal ko mas lalo nung retreat. at oo, siya ang unang nagpaiyak sakin ng grabe nung retreat, mahal ko to. owrenge dyus? :)

7. ito clubmate ko nung 1st year, tapos naging sobrang talik na kaibigan ko nung 2nd year. isa siya sa mga tinuturing ko na pinakaimportanteng tao sakin ngayon. kahit na corny lahat ng sinasabi niya at mabagal siyang pumick-up. :) siya yung matyagang nakikinig sa mga kwento kong bangag, sa mga tagumpay at kabiguan ko. nagkaron kami ng maraming hindi pagkakaintindihan pero hindi yun ang nakasira ng pagkakaibigan namin. :) naniniwala akong biyaya talaga siya ng Diyos para sakin. :)

8. kapatid ko to sa Diyos. pag kasama ko siya sobrang laugh trip. :) napapasaya niya ang maraming tao. :) madami siyang nagagawang incredible things, katulad nang pakikipagfriends niya kina tita connie at roxy. :) niahahahaha. mahal na mahal ko tong bruhang to. :)

9. ngayong sy lang kami nagkakilala, kaklase ko siya sa III-4. sobrang mahal ko tong taong to :). magaling na manunulat at alagad ng sining. :) kadalasan, sinasabi niya yung mga bagay na nasa utak ko, bangag. :) ayun, lagi din siyang bangag. :) natutuwa ako sa kanya sa di ko malamang dahilan. nakakaawa din siyang umiyak, tapos ang sarap i-hug. :) mahilig din siya sa OPM, at handa parin siyang mamatay para sa mga pilipino :) haha. kakaiba tong taong to, sobrang sobrang bait niya. kakaiba talaga. love na love ko to. :)

10. ito super ate ko. :) madalas promblemado din siya pero sobrang naglalaan siya ng oras na pakinggan ang mga problema ko. :) nakilala ko siya nung 1st year ako, siya naman, 4th year na noon. :) nagsimula sa kwentuhang long test na umabot na sa mga reklamo namin sa buhay at buhay pag-ibig. sobrang pinapagalitan niya ko pag gising pako at late na, tapos nireremind ako na mag aral para sa isang lt or watever, ateng ate. :) mahal na mahal ko to. :)

11. naging kaklase ko to sa II-1. nirerespeto ko tong taong to sa pangangahas niya na kumaiba sa nakararami at kuamalas sa sistema ng mga bagay na nakagawian niya. wala siyang pakielam sa sinasabi ng ibang tao, hanggang tama ang ginagawa niya. magaling tong artista. hindi ako pinaproblema nung play prod. :) isa tong totoong tao na talaga namang kahanga-hanga. :) isa na siya sa mga tinuturing kong tunay na kaibigan, yung mga tipong pangmatagalan.

12. honey ko. :) niahahaha. madami kaming pinagdaanan nito, sobra. sa isang taon lamang, madami na masyadong nangrayi. naging isang tunay na kaibigan to sakin, kahit na nagkaron ng "medyo" maraming problema sa pagitan namin. madami akong natutunan dito sa taong to. akalain mo, inaway ko si person #7 dahil dito, ganon siya kaimportante sakin. madalas, pakiramdam ko taken for granted ako nito, pero magaling naman bumawi. :) mahal ko to, sobra. :)

13. ito ang babaeng sagana sa plano. hahaha. andaming gusto, walang matuloy-tuloy. nung grade 7, inaaway ko to halos araw araw, sa pinakamaliliit at malalaking dahilan. lagi ko tong sinesermonan, pero love niya parin ako. :) sobrang tiyaga ng taong to sakin, siya yung ulitimate na kumaya sa mga kasungitan ko. mahal ko to. :)

14. pag ginagabi ako sa jasms, siya yung sumasama sakin. samin ng besty ko. :) sobrang gentleman, promise. swerte talaga magiging gf nito. :) [saguutin mo na kasi _____ :) joke.] pinagtataxi kami nito, sagot niya, minsan hindi pa talaga makatiis, para siguradong safe kami, ihahatid pa kami. :) ito ang umalalay samin ni besty nung nasobrahan kami sa alkohol, ito yung hindi basta nang iiwan sa ere. ito yung naniniwala "daw" pag sinasabi naming kaya pa namin maglakad pero aalalay parin. :) ito yung isa sa mga pinaka dabam na nakilala ko sa jasms, mahal ko to :)

15. madalas, naiisip kong nalilimutan na niya ko. madami na kasi siyang ibang kaibigan. minsan nahihiya nakong mag-hi, kasi parang hindi siya masaya pag nakikita niya ko. matagal na kaming magkaibigan nito. dito talaga, pakiramdam ko madalas, taken for granted ako. pero kahit na ganon, mahal na mahal ko parin siya. isa siya sa mga ginto ko eh. miss ko na tong taong to, sobra.

75: sa alaala ni ate mach mach :) [patay ka buh?!]

2005-07-25T12:33:00.000+04:30

ate thea, pano ba yan, natago ko pa :)

ui, mahal kita, kahit hindi ko ung masyado napadama. :(

ingat ka diyan ah, yung paalala ko :)
pag tatawid ka sa streets, hawak ka sa kamay ng elders :) bwahahah.

i love you so much ate thea.
mwah.

74: of vanity beybeh :)

2005-07-24T22:05:00.000+04:30

bangag picture everywhere :)

and now i have this relationship with my camera! :)

oh, before i forget..

happy birthday esposo! :)
mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kitaaaa :)

ikaw lang ang nag-iisa kong esposo, kahit pinagpapalit moko kay raiza riva! :))

pati na rin sa pinakamamahal kong pugo..

happy birthday! tama na pambababae ok? :) love you. :)

73: hindi ako makahinga.

2005-07-18T15:58:00.000+04:30

at dahil yan sa saya :)

neburmind. :)

litralitrato :)

osan-keavy-dea

picture kung picture. :)

FOUR

gagawin lahat masama lang sa litrato :) dea?

3-4 :)

mahal ko kayo :)

yan naman ang bangag.

mga ninenok na plato :)

ang ganda ng litrato, jolly, bkt nasa likod ka?

hayan. wala lang :)

72: kanta at mga litrato.

2005-07-15T15:03:00.000+04:30

DAMDAMIN
-mutine machine

bakit
nung una ganon lamang
pero
habang tumatagal di matago
meron
kasi sayo na wala sa iba
kaya ngayon aaminin na...

lumapit ka
at sasabihin kong mahal na kita
lumaya na
ang damdaming noo'y nakakulong pa
ngayo'y masaya
at sa wakas ngayo'y nasabi na

ngayon
di alam
gagawin at ikikilos
marahil ako'y magtatago
lahat ng ito dahil sayo...

lumapit ka
at sasabihin kong mahal na kita
lumaya na
ang damdaming noo'y nakakulong pa
ngayo'y masaya
at sa wakas ngayo'y nasabi na

sana
wag lumayo
sana
ika'y kumibo

***bagay daw sakin sabi ni clusibolita. mahal kita clusi, mabuhay si mamet at ang mga panget.

daming pichurs :)

71: nakaiyak na ko, masaya na.

2005-07-15T14:06:00.000+04:30

http://livejournal.com/~keavy_nine
nakakatamad mag type eh.

70: kill me.

2005-07-09T16:55:00.000+04:30

hindi niya ko kinausap for a week straight.
may sore throat ako.
hindi ako nakatulong sa CL group ko today.
hindi ko pa nabibili ang para sa proyekto ng kumite ko sa homeroom.
hindi pa nagreresign si gloria.

what the hell?

69: masayang masayang masaya

2005-07-01T15:17:00.000+04:30

basta masaya ako.
sobrang saya ko.
iningatan niya yung binigay ko,
nakakahimatay! :)

gerl,
mahal kita :) naiintindihan kita noh :) relak lang :)

68: update.

2005-06-30T14:36:00.000+04:30

ui, masaya ako dun sa isang entry.
hindi nga pala ako nakapasa dun sa screening ng magni, baka hindi ako qualified.
nalungkot ako, pero exaj na ang pagiging mahina ko.
iyak ng iyak, minsan, hindi nako naniniwala sa sarili kong mga luha.

JEDYNE TEJADA:
salamat sa pag-asikaso. mahal kita chocnut.

67: magni?

2005-06-26T14:25:00.000+04:30

noong huwebes ng nakaraang linggo, sumubok akong sumulat para sa news staff ng magnificat. sa kabutihang palad, kahit na sobrang bangag ng mga naisulat ko, nakapasa ako! :)
noong biyernes, manonood dapat kami ni ate milay ng play ng banaag, pero nasabay ito sa interview ko sa magnificat.
inaasahan naming pareho na matatapos agad ang magni interview ko, ngunit, subalit, datapwat, pero... after 10 years pa eh!
haha. hintay na hintay naman kami.:)
naglalaro kami ni gayna,
kumanta kami ng "i'm here because you're here because i'm here because you're here..." with matching dance steps!
exaj na ang kabangagan namin!
nag mirror mirror image pa kami.
basta bangag kung bangag. :)

tapos,
nung finally ako na,
bwahahahahahaha.
ang nag interview sakin ay sila jolly, jedyne, alex at ung isang alumni na :)
hindi torture young interview,
hindi siya nakakatrauma katulad ng ibang club.
basta, nag enjoy ako, sobra :)

isa nalang ang kulang,
MAKAPASA AKO. :)

pagkatao sa Diyos,
puso't isip sa sining,
paa sa lupa.

66: para sayo to.

2005-06-23T14:19:00.000+04:30

regalo

ang ngiti ng labi mo,
ang pagtataka sa mga mata mo,
ang yakap na nagmula sayo,
binuhay muli puso't kaluluwa ko.

65: ay, isa pa.

2005-06-19T14:12:00.000+04:30

maligayang bati sayo ate milay! :)

salamat sa lahat lahat.
masyadong madami yung lahat lahat para isa-isahin ko pa.
basta, sa lahat ng magaganda at hindi masyadong magagandang pinagsamahan natin,
salamat :)

mahal na mahal kita :)

naalala mo yung activity natin na hahatiin yung paper sa family/barkada/special people?

lagi kang may sarili mong box dun :)

abisalla sangre alena :)

64: nga pala..

2005-06-19T13:24:00.000+04:30

3-4 ako.

nalimutan kong gumawa ng back to school update.
sorry bangag eh.

masaya ba ko sa 3-4?
ewan.
tahimik ako lately.

sige, gusto ko lang sabihin :)

hi 3-4 :)

63: pampakalma.

2005-06-17T13:32:00.000+04:30

GAME: list top 10 favorite songs, artist and your favorite lines :)

1. akap-imago
-ibaling sakin ang problema mo, kakayanin ko.

2. hanggang ngayon-kyla
-di makapaniwala sa nagawa mong paglisan, o kay bilis namang malayo ka sa akin.

3. sa kanya-mymp
-sa kanya ka rin babalik, sigaw ng damdamin, sa kanya pa rin sasaya, bulong ng puso ko.

4. leaving you-session road
-i'm tired of waiting here for you, can't waste my time i'm leaving you.

5. himala-rivermaya
-kasalanan bang humingi ako sa langit ng isang himala?

6. minamalas-mojofly
-minamalas, kasi wala na kong mahanap na iba.

7. burnout-sugarfree
-kung iisipin mo, di naman dating ganito, kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay.

8. let me go-3 doors down
-you love me but you don't know who i am, so let me go, just let me go.

9. hallelujah-bamboo
-ako'y gising nakabantay sayo, kasi mahal kita.

10. art of letting go-mikaila
-tried to say it's over, said the words goodbye, but each time it catches in my throat, you're still here in me, and i can't set you free.

malungkot ba? :)

62: magulo ang isip ko.

2005-06-17T13:00:00.000+04:30

sablay talaga ko.
gusto kong maging positibo,
maganda naman ang simula ng taon para sakin. :)
nag aaral ako sa geom,
nagbabasa ako sa chem.
hindi ako masyadong maingay.

pero...
malabo naman eh.
masaya ang may hinahangaan di ba?
pero ang hirap lang pag ayaw mo aminin sa sarili mo yung nararamdaman mo dahil sa ilang "komplikasyon" na sa totoo lang, ikaw lang naman ang nag iisip.

anong masama kung may hinahangaan na naman ako?
masarap gumising sa umaga,
matalino siya so sinisipag akong mag aral,
palaging ayos ang itsura ko,
at tahimik ako lagi.

positibo diba?

anong problema?

kasi ganito yun,
ayoko na ng baluktot,
gusto ko diretso.

61: update updatan :)

2005-06-08T07:37:00.000+04:30

walang nanyayaring exciting sa buhay ko lately. ewan ko ba. bangag kung bangag ang drama ko. miss ko na ang teen theater at ang buong PETA environment. miss ko na ang paglalakad sa UP tuwing dilim.

kachat ko si lena ngayon. napag-uusapan na naman ang pagpasok.

keavy_nine: pasukan na natin next week..
keavy_nine: ang scary!
theacruz22 : scary? bakit naman?!
theacruz22 :
theacruz22 : excited na nga ako eh
keavy_nine: eh kc..
keavy_nine: ewn..
keavy_nine: iba tlga feeling ko ba mga unang araw..
keavy_nine: scarrry.

sa totoo lang, scary dahil hindi ko na alam kung pano makisalamuha sa mga tao sa MC. hindi to exaherasyon ok? talagang paniguradong maninibago ako. nasanay nako masyado sa pagiging bangag at sabog.

pero kung magpakatotoo kaya ako? magpakabangag at sabog din kaya ako kahit knollers ang kasalamuha ko? nyeknyek.

60: pasukan na.

2005-06-06T08:57:00.000+04:30

ayoko

mang isipin, makikita ko na naman yang logo na yan everywhere. hindi

naman sa sobrang sinusumpa ko ang MC, madami na din naman akong mga

kaibigan dun, pero ewan. laboomz talaga eh.
3-1???

ano naman kayang section ko? sana matino. yun na ang section sa huling dalawang taon sa high school.

okay. ang MC socks na sobrang loose na. bibili nako ng bago.

walang kwenta yung entry ko. bahala na nga si batman. sa mga nag tag,

gabz: anak, miss na din kita.

yeyen: baka gusto mo din mag comment.

cha: miss you more :)

ligaya: miss na kita boi. gusto ko ng choco bites.

ate rina: nagkita na tayo, nakalimutan mo magpa autograph sakin :))

maffy: maffy espela?

raych: bez, c u on wednesday!

abby: go DLSU!

bea: jasms naman.

yanyan: mwah!

59: ang gulo ng mundo.

2005-05-22T13:16:00.000+04:30

namatay ang isang dating ka eskwela.
aksidente ata sa kotse.
hindi ko alam yung buong kuwento eh,
ayoko nang alamin.

nakakatakot.

nakikiramay ako sa mga taong naiwan ni king caimol.
crush ko siya nung grade 4 ako,
pero kinuha na siya ni Papa God ngayon.

58: mula kay ate sam.

2005-05-16T16:13:00.000+04:30

i'm FINE [freaked out, insecure, neurotic, emotional].

yeah, i'm so dead FINE.

57: heavy, keri ba to?

2005-05-16T15:11:00.000+04:30

nakita ko na naman siya.
ang malalaki niyang mga mata,
kulot na buhok,
matangos na ilong,
at ang balbas sarado niyang mukha.
hinintay ko siya,
mga isang oras at kalahati,
pero nang maaninag ko na ang pagdating niya,
nakalimutan ko ang haba ng hinintay ko.

ano ba naman ang isa't kalahating oras kumpara sa mas mahaba ko nang paghihintay sa kanya?
bale wala yun.
pasikreto akong napangiti nang umupo na siya sa tabi ko.

tinitigan ko ang mukha niya,
bawat parte nito,
tinignan kong mabuti,
yung tipong hindi ko mabilis itong malilimutan.
tinignan ko, patago para hindi niya ko makita.
tinignan ko, habang nasasaktan dahil malamang, huling pagkakataon ko na iyon para makita siya.

minsan lang siyang sumulyap,
pero napasaya na ko noon.
sana mapagod na ko sa pag tingin lang.
aalis na naman din siya eh, para san pa?

~hoy ikaw, mapapagod din ako. hindi pa siguro ngayon pero alam kong mapapagod din ako. titigil din ako sa pagtingin at pag-iisip na balang araw, titingin ka ulit sa kin. napa saakin na yung pagkakataon na pagbalihan mo ng atensyon, sinayang ko yun. kaya wala na, tapos na to.~

*gaguhan. madrama naman masyado. ulol talaga kong bata, ambisyosa.

A: ui, pauwi nako, kakatapos lang namin mag-isaw nila ate ju. salamat ulit sa halo-halo ah? :)
B: cge! my pleasure. you take care ok? :)
A: ikaw din. :) inform mo ko pa aalis ka na, as in aalis ka na ah? :)
B: sure, txt kita or tawagan para mag babay :)
A: cge, ingat! :)

56: yehey!

2005-05-16T08:01:00.000+04:30

ansaya! makikita ko mga taga PETA.
hindi kami kumpleto pero masaya ito :)
sige,
sakay nako ng jeep :))

may 20. patayan na ito.

2005-05-13T07:30:00.000+04:30

aalis siya sa may 20.
ayoko na.

54: bangag na bangag.

2005-05-11T17:28:00.000+04:30

miss ko na ang lahat ng jologs na yan.

niyaya ako muli ni diane mag CUE.

hindi pumayag si mudra,

nung unang tanong ko.

pero papayag naman yun kung pinilit ko.

hindi ko na pinilit.

ako man pinag iisipan ko,

gusto ko pa ba talaga bumalik don?

sa PETA,

natutunan ko na being unique is breaking conventions.

bakit ako babalik sa mga conventions na ginusto kong basagin?

hindi na.

milay_yeah : alam mo, nakikita ko

keavy_nine: alin?

milay_yeah : nasa MTTL ka

keavy_nine: at nakikita kong kasama kita

milay_yeah : aheehee

milay_yeah :

milay_yeah : ikaw

milay_yeah : nasa MTTL

milay_yeah : awww

milay_yeah : sana nga

keavy_nine: yehey!

keavy_nine: naalala ko lng nung kausap kita..

keavy_nine: bkt tayo masaya sa PETA?

keavy_nine: kc eskapo natin un sa MC life..

keavy_nine: sabay mag ccue ako..

keavy_nine: ano kaya un!?

milay_yeah : ahahahaha

milay_yeah : you made the right decision nga talaga

milay_yeah :

keavy_nine: mabuti nlng nag isip ako ng maigi..

keavy_nine: alam mo nmn ako..

keavy_nine: madalas..

milay_yeah : ahahahaha

keavy_nine: sablay.

milay_yeah : "ako ang hari ng sablay..."

milay_yeah : background music

53: SALAMAT NA LAMANG SAYO.

2005-05-09T09:34:00.000+04:30

RAKEAMI (japanese ng lucky me)
RAKEAMI JU? (japanese ng gusto mo ng lucky me ju?)

paano malungkot ang isang bangag?
ganito,
titingin siya sa kawalan,
mag-iisip ng matindi,
hihinga ng malalim at magttype ng entry.
[try niyo to ng mabilisan]

teka,
bago ko simulan ang drama, hinga muna.

inhale

exhale

inhale

exhale

inhale

ayan game na! :)

ay sorry.

exhale :)

labo. pakshet.

malungkot ako kasi lunes ngayon,
sa nakaraang apat na linggo,
pag lunes nasa UPIS ako.

pero iba ang lunes na ito.
unang lunes na hindi ako gigising ng alas onse at aalis sa bahay ng alas dose,
sasakay ng tryc papuntang FCM,
sasakay ng jeep papuntang philcoa,
sasakay ng jeep papuntang vinzon's hall,
lalakad papuntang UPIS,
maglalakad papuntang pagoda,
sasalubungin ng mga kaklaseng bangag.

nung unang lunes, hindi pako komportable, pangalawang lunes, malapit nako sa mga kaklase ko, pangatlong lunes heart broken dahil sa isang tao, panghuling lunes, pagod dahil sa showcase.

pero kahit paano pa magdaan ang bawat lunes,
ito ang naging mga pinakamasayang lunes ng buhay ko.
hindi lng lunes,
maging ang mga martes, miyerkules, huwebes at biyernes.

ang munting silid na aming pinamalagian,
nagsilbing tahanan ng aming pamilya.
oo, hindi lang kami isang ordinaryong grupo o klase,
isa kaming pamilya.

sa pamilya tanggap ka diba?
kahit sino o ano ka pa.
ganoon sa PETA,
isa kaming malaking pamilya.

PETA ang mundong matagal ko nang pinangarap,
hindi ko ipagpapalit kahit san pa.
nasa PETA ang mga taong pinangarap kong makasama,
mga totoong tao.

sa apat na linggo kong pamamalagi sa PETA,
nabago nito ang buhay ko.

salamat sa inyo.

tambay sa class'57 kasama si ate milay at ate ju+mga kwentuhan sa pagoda+cool+jologs+in or out+bangag+ice monster kasama si ate milay, ate ju, jaja at gabz+blush para kay ate ju+commercial model na facilitator+bangag na documentalist+symbol of love namin ni ate ju=laway+belgian na nagtatagalog+UPIS is a non-smoking area, please cooperate+gab,paki pronounce ang johan?+love square+love pentgon+love-hate relationship+mtv+mahal, mura at inday+sa secretariat [kanta yan]+billy from the bright lights+bakla?+mga baabe ang nasa loob ng boy's cr+gardo+bags sa side please+pagtanggap ng id na parang gumagraduate+mahal kita, mahal mo ba ako?+mabilis tumakbo ang kabayo ko+jokes ni victor+gusto kong manghuli ng tutubing pink, gusto kong manghuli ng tutubing blue+energy+mheng, anong favorite color mo?+lakad sa UP+pasundo ng 8:30+takot ako kay ate ju, bakit? eh kasi, teka, tao ba yun?+ate ju, ngayon ko lang nalaman, tao ka pala?+attitude problem?+TAN+the others+huhuhu huhuhu+kamuka ni jaja yung anak ni kuya raffy+sa UPIS tayo tumira ate milay+mga pag-ibig na pururot+tawa+iyak+asar+pagmamahal+pamilya ko+teentheater05

mahal na mahal ko kayo.
kita kits :)

52: hala, ang tagal ng update.

2005-04-30T11:17:00.000+04:30

masaya ang buhay PETA. minsan puro laro, minsan sobrang seryoso, minsan gaguhan lahat, minsan nakaka drain ng utak. pero masaya parin naman.
bangag nga lang ako lagi pag andun ako. masaya naman maging bangag diba?

next week na ang huling linggo ng workshop ko, keri ba to?
ewan. sabi nga ni ate milay "kaya ko tong gawin habang buhay". ako din, kahit ganon nalang habang buhay, masaya nako nun. ang bangag ko talaga.

sa mga taga teen theater, kasama na ang aming mga tagapagdaloy na sina ate lotlot at kuya raffy, at ang documentalist na si ronaldo [ate ju] at ang ibang nang gimbal sa summer ko, cool kayong lahat.

jologs.

51: jamming? hala.

2005-04-19T16:16:00.000+04:30

bubuo kami ng MTV bukas. patay. patay. patay talaga. sana dumating sila ng alas onse. anak ng tokwa. sana lang diba?

50: pigaan na!

2005-04-18T19:19:00.000+04:30

hay naku.

ito na ang simula.

nakikinita ko na ang mga susunod pang araw.

pigaan na.

matinding pag-iisip na ang kinakailangan.

tulad ng sabi ni ate lotlot,

hindi na to laro.

seryoso na si kuya raffy kanina,

nakakatakot.

pero ok naman din,

kasi mas maganda ang magagawa namin kung hindi kami puro tawa.

sana lang hindi masyado mabigla ang mga tao.

goodluck nalang.

ito na ang totoong PETA.

improvisational diba?

kung naiwan o naibaon mo na sa limot ang utak mo,

simulan mo na hanaping muli.

kakailanganin mo yan.

sige,

gagawa lng ako ng homework.

ayoko madaot.

paalam.

49: wow. pangatlong post.

2005-04-16T21:59:00.000+04:30

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Traditional - Modern culture does not move you. You hold traditional values dear to your heart.
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Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need.
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1. Conservative
2. Traditional
3. Religious
4. Outgoing
5. Wealthy/Ambitious
6. Adventurous
7. Stylish
8. Practical
9. Romantic
10. Funny

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48: napost ko na to dati.

2005-04-16T16:07:00.000+04:30

pero uulitin ko padin. ginawa ko ung poem na to before, wala naman akong problema nung ginawa ko to. pero ngayon, sobrang sakto nung poem. sabi ko na eh, may manyayaring masama.

He spoke with ennui,
His actions so feeble.
There was a discrepancy
between his emotions and his actions.
His teary eyes intrinsicly blunt, blank, empty.
I saw his marred soul through his eyes,
his heart almost obsolete.
i piqued him with my endless rants about my life,
and how i felt no love from anyone.
Then all of a sudden he showed valor,
He confessed everything he felt for me.
My whole world turned around,
I have loved him all my life,
but then reality hit me.
We live in two different worlds.
i spurned the offer,
turned away, moved out.
Then spent the rest of my life
feeling melancholic because of one wrong decision.

hindi ko naisip na magugulo niya ang mundo ko ng ganito.

47: PETA parin parin.

2005-04-16T15:44:00.000+04:30

bakit kaya hindi ko matapos ung homework namin? brrrr. ang hirap naman kasi noh. gagawan mo ng tula bawat isng kaklase mo? ilan kami? 27? wow.

46: PETA parin.

2005-04-15T16:19:00.000+04:30

may homework kami mula kay ate lotlot. teka, gagawin ko muna. tapos ipopost ko dito.

45: PETA

2005-04-13T20:12:00.000+04:30

ito ay isang matinding update.
promise.

mula sa pangungusap na ito, lahat na'y isasalaysay ko sa wikang tagalog. pilipino naman tayo eh, ika nga ni ate lotlot.

LUNES
nagsimula na ang palihan ko sa PETA. bago ako nagtungo roon, akin munang kinatagpo si ate milay sa katipunan. matapos ang isang oras kong paghihintay, siya nama'y dumating. tumungo kami ni ate milay sa UPIS ng kakaba kaba. oo, galing na kami sa PETA noong nakaraang palihan, pero kakaiba parin.
bago ang lahat ng kaklase namin, para kaming bumagsak, nagbalik. yak. labo. ayun, masaya naman ang unang araw, sina ate lotlot at kuya raffy ang mga tigapagdaloy namin. andun din si ate julia, hindi ko alam ang tawag sa kanya, nagsusulat siya lagi, at sabi niya, wag daw siyang pansinin.
mas palakaibigan ako ngayong taon, naalala ko lang ang una kong araw noong nakaraang palihan, nasa isang gilid kami ni ate milay, at mga tatlong araw, nasa sulok lang kami, kaming tatlo lang nila elka ang magkakausap. sa pagkakataong ito, "pa-cool" nako, nginingitian ko lahat ng tao, tinatanong ang mga pangalan, at kinakalimutan. :) tinatawag ko sila ng "oi".

MARTES
araw ng bugtungan at leksyon. masakit ang tuhod ko. makulit si nere. may baon akong pillows. wala akong tubig. tumambay kami sa upuan/lamesa ng class '57. nakiupo si ate ju at ate gold. masaya naman. laway. biggie. cool. uwian na.

MIYERKULES
alas-onse ako naroon. kaming dalawa ni rio, dumating si ate milay ng mga alas-one-y-medya, naghanda kami ng palabas, para sa recap, ayaw namin madaot. nahuli sa pagdating sina edward at gabs, pati na rin si ate kat. nalimutan ata na alas-onse ang sinabi kong oras. maganda ang recap namin, sabi ni ate lot.
may bago kaming kaklase, tga MC. c trishka. masaya ang mga ginawa namin. basta masaya, tama na tanong.

gusto kong maging magaling. kinakalaban ko ang sarili ko dahil gusto ko pang higitan ang kaya kong gawin. labo. ah basta, parang ayoko na sa teen theater sa susunod na mga taon. gusto ko yata makapasok sa mas mataas na.....

44: dead end

2005-04-08T16:04:00.000+04:30

He spoke with ennui,

His actions so feeble.

There was a discrepancy

between his emotions and his actions.

His teary little eyes intrinsicly blunt, blank, empty.

I saw his marred soul through his eyes,

his heart almost obsolete.

i piqued him with my endless rants about my life,

and how i felt no love from anyone.

Then all of a sudden he showed valor,

He confessed everything he felt for me.

My whole world turned around,

I have loved him all my life,

but then reality hit me.

We live in two different worlds.

i spurned the offer,

turned away, moved out.

Then spent the rest of my life

feeling melancholic because of one wrong decision.

**7:33 PM f

made this one :(

~i'm gonna do something today that'd please my king. He'd love me even more :)

43: same ground

2005-04-05T16:53:00.000+04:30

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond
What human can imagine
More it clears
The more i gotta let you go

'cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love
Is a word just thrown
A litlle bit too much of this
Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And nevere ever have to fade

Cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground

If all else fail
Would you be there to love me?
When all else fails
Would you be brave to see right through me?

-same ground by kitchie nadal

ang ganda nung kanta. ang lungkot nga lang. :( pero mgnda. :) gs2 ko ng summer layout :)

42: itchy.

2005-04-05T13:39:00.000+04:30

huhuhuhu. im havin' my allergies! skin asthma, it's killin' me. huhuhuhuhu. we went to the doctor yesterday for a checkup, but still.. huhuhuhuhu. im dead itchy.

i baked butterscotch that turned sorta brownie a while ago :) as i've said, it turned brown, dark brown. fine then, black. but my yaya still said it was so yummy :) greaaaat :)

so there, i'm takin 13 tablets a day. :( but it sorta helps :)

i need a hug, now!

41: doolar entry

2005-04-03T18:41:00.000+04:30

pardon d language dat i is to use, is d doolar language. i is miss 2-1 and 2nd year. i is miss using of dis language, nobody is speak to me in doolar in d house y`know.

anyhoo, i is stay at d house of d mommy poi on d april1 and d 2. is becoooos, is her haburdae!:)

APRIL 1
i is sleep in her house with the tortol, d morof and d babylabs. d raych is go to but is not sleep. we is spend a berri hapifool time! :) we is play and play and we is watch and we is sleep for a litol time but is play again and is watch again.

APRIL 2
d raych is not der anymor and we is watch again and is play again. we is enjoy. we is also sing to d magic mic, we is sing boyband songs y`knw, of d westlife [tortol's peyborit] of d a1, of d backstreet boys and many many more. den i is suddenly fell asleep y`know. d patti is leave w/out my consent and dey is tell dat is only whisper of a babay in my ears. den d honeylabs is arrive and we is eat of a berri yumyum food :) thanks mommy poi! HABURDAE! :)

orayt.

i is supposed to post of somethingsad but berri good of me dat i is not post :)

i had my allergies :( is because of sumthin secret! :) and now i is have of a fever because the allergies made me feel bad. :( huhuhuhuhuhuhu.

tuh tuh.

40: this one goes for my saviour :)

2005-03-28T10:10:00.000+04:30

ONE WAY

I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one I need
I turn to you and you are always there

In troubled times its you I seek
I put you first thats all I need
I humble all I am, All to you

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are always, always there
Every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You wil never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are the way the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight ... for you
We're living all for you

*sa mga taong nagiicp na korni maging on fire kay Lord, think again. listen more closely, baka tinatawag niya kayo. miss na kayo nun. :)

i don't wanna sound so preachy, pero aun. paalala lang, kahit sino o ano ka pa, mahal ni papa God. mahal ka ni Jesus. at kahit wala nang may love sayo, si papa God, ready palagi na ibigay sayo ung pagmamahal na hindi kaya ibigay ng mundo. :)

39: GB ko :)

2005-03-27T19:56:00.000+04:30

yan naman ang GB ko :) pinapagdasal ko na yan. huahahaha. yak labo.

siya si kuya lemuel :) kyut kyut nia noh! :) ung kapatid nian ang ka love team ko nung bata ako. :)) ang problema, 8 years lang naman ang tanda nia sakin!!! haha! labo!

"waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought". not with my God :)

GB=God's Best. la lng.

galing nga pala ko sa camp.

ansaya :) nakita ko c cyril after ages. :) pati mga tao tao, lahat sila

kilala ako, tapos parang ako.. "hi po. :)" at the back of my mind..

"cno po ba kayo?". haha, ndi ko na cla naaalala. errrrrrrr.

ayun, i fell in love with my God more. change layout nako :) aayusin ko lng ung isa :)

i wanna be part of YWAV [youth

with a vision] and baka mag join na ko ulit sa music ministry :)

naririnig ko na si Lord eh. tinatawag niako.

ayun. habang nasa camp din

ako, nammroblema si lynda. tapos nagkaburden ako na ipakilala si Lord

sa kanya. hayyy. iniyak ko na siya kay Lord, alam kong makikinig si

Lord.

til next post.

38: trial ng photobucket blog options.

2005-03-22T20:45:00.000+04:30

hi bez raych. miss you :)

37: i would like to thank victory liner transit for my ride back home from zambales to manila :D

2005-03-22T12:17:00.001+04:30

Which Disney Princess are you?

im esmeralda! :)

i don't wanna go into details about my zambales trip. i was stucked in a situation wherein i had to make such crucial decision, believe it or not, i'm glad about the decision i made. the zambales trip was worth the screams, the sermons and the worries of everyone. basta, someone needed me badly, i just did my part as a friend.

unlike what everyone expected, mom understood what i did. she didn't scream at me or even slapped my face, she just listened to me. she's the best mom. :)

shout outs:

ate tin~thanks for staying w/ me through text on my way home :) ur the best! :)
raychee~thanks for the tagalog marathon text text eklat :)
people na tinawagan ng mom ko~sorry kng nabulabog kayo! haha, and sorry din for making u guys worry.
lynda~i love you dear, so much. i'll stick w/ u no matter what. :)
pau~isang malaking sorry, pero may kasalanan ka din! alam mo un!

ayun. sorry na. ganyan tlga :)

36:of cramming, nostalgia, fear and perplexity.

2005-03-17T10:15:00.000+04:30

ok. nagrereview dapat ako for bio today, pero anong ginawa ko? wala. sobrang wala ako sa tamang ulira, katamaran ang pinaiiral ko. pero may na accomplish din naman ako today, tignan nio to.

hay. nalungkot na naman ako. last day na pala bukas. whew. parang ang bilis, sobrang bilis.

nagsimula kong mahalin ang two-one, nung 3rd quarter na, kasi nung qtrs before that, ugh. never mind.

tapos ayun, sobrang ewan ko ba. sayang yung 1st 2 qtrs na sana minahal ko na sila ng todohan.

iba talaga sa two-one, solid eh. mahal ko bawat tao dito. as in mahal na mahal na mahal ko.

sobrang magkakaiba kami, pero may something na mahirap ipaliwanag na nagbobond samin. pwede kaming maging sobrang ingay at sobrang tahimik, sobrang ayos at sobrang gulo, sobrang seryoso at sobrang laugh trip. mamimiss ko to.

sabi ko nung una, ayoko lumapit sa kanilang lahat. ayoko ma attach. kasi mahirap na naman pag tapos na. pero wala eh, sobrang naging mundo ko na ang two-one, at oo, mahihirapan ako ulit bumitiw.

saya:lungkot:pagintindi:pagka immature:pandadaot ni ms. marilag:pagmamahal ni ms. deps:speechfest, may papatunayan tayo:high:med:low:lucy:cello's:laugh trip:florante at laura:asian fest:"i expected less..":breakfast sa classrum:magulong family tree:honeylabs:kitten:puppy:langaw:arjo:mang digs:mcdo katips:tierra pura:minor offense:CLEANEST CLASSROOM:kokak:doolar:sang xi:tsunami:pugo:emeny:balidabs:soph night:fallopian tube:iyak:tawa:war:labo:"ladies, mahirap kayo, wala kayong chalk:we love ms. adiong:bye ms. adiong:bye ms. millete:nyahnyahnyahnyah nyihnyihnyihnyih moomoomoomoo:ice monster:kfc:classroom na mukang bodega:jologs:minsan babae, minsan bakla:LUMEE:eynimor, eynithing:nagkamali nga pasok, sa I-11:d sailor went to the CCC:"macy, para kang c ethel booba":manhEd!:ex:pakopya ng homework:"camille, pasara ng door":"miss, cnong camille?":walang ligaments:ngiti:iyak, iyak, iyak=TWO-ONE

mamimiss ko kayong lahat.

next year, bagong section na naman. sana hindi mawala ung samahan na pinundar natin.

mahal ko ang bawat isa sa inyo.

35: india:profile

2005-03-16T14:20:00.000+04:30

INDIA
prettiest production manager:strictest director:bangagest stage manager:pasawayest lead role:most hardworking child#2:most famous pepa:6pm dismissal time EVERYDAY:practices=lunch,dismissal,saturdays:serious:laugh trip:our very own lucy:agatha's house:swimswimswim:forgotten lines:sermons:spaghetti:caramel sundae:arrested PM [haha, sorry gerl!]:scary speech room experiences:crying sessions:change of venue:aliya's house:color coding night sessions with patti and raych:yellow cab, P80 each:mcdo:kfc:war:peace:cancelled practices:rest day for math LT:mang digs:science cai:lights off, lights off sabi!:on my own:it might be you:march 11, 2005:madur,madur:ngiti:bangag:i dreamed a dream:sea shore:cast! onstage:nyanyahnyah nyhihnyihnh moomoomoo:PEter+aPALA=PEPALA:tsunami:hope after despair:sequels:tsunami too;pepa:tsunami (drawing ng puno):=veda=fraternal twin of ved:tsunami 4=usha=the ressurection:ice monster:singing session:playstation:tardiness:cello's:danglings:"si cello ung babaeng mataba":hindi siya si cello!!!:chicken:lights on! where's camille?:lights on! where's raych?:injured apala:on and off red light:gr.7 turnover:pillows:laughs:tears:fights:reconciliations:love:teamwork:God:prayer before everything:lost props:counter:20 mins:best performance=it was all worth it. we felt bliss for 20 great minutes of the performance. in our hearts, we'll keep all the memories.

34: india. i miss you guys.

2005-03-16T13:41:00.000+04:30

INDIA group
~different people, each one having skills different from all the others. each one having something to offer. each one having one and the same goal, to make the play production our expression of creativity, our masterpiece.
we have experienced mood swings, we've been through fights, we saw the worst sides of one another yet, we learned to accept everyone. we laughed, we cried, we grew tired, we felt hyperness at it's best. we acted it out, we rested, we played dumb, we made excuses to cancel practices, we made excuses to be able to go to practices. we stayed up late, we slept during class hours, we made mchs our home, our own houses ran away from us. we prepared for about a month and some weeks, we got rejected scripts, we made new ones, we recieved painful corrections, we learned many things the hard way, we hated one another and loved them at the same time.
we failed long tests and topped quizzes. we forgot about other schoolworks and some homeworks too. we felt weariness at it's greatest. practices seemed like years, but when through, seemed to last for only some minutes.
and for all the ups and downs of the group, the 20-minute show made it all worthwhile.
i smiled as i watched our masterpiece, and i'd love to do it all over again.

33: perplexed.

2005-03-16T12:14:00.000+04:30

i've been staring at this "create post" page for almost an hour, i can't find the right words to write anything with coherence. i'm feelin' so much emotion, as if it's gonna burst out anytime soon. i wanna write down everything that's going through my mind, but the words won't come out.

SPONGECOLA - Dragonfly

Maybe I'm a little addicted
Maybe I just Can't get out of this
Maybe it is just too soon to say

I've seen you blow right past my window
You flew away and I was left inside
Without a clue

But If you think that I am too stoned to write
Don't think twice

Free your mind
Don't let me down
We'll find a way to make it go away

I went ahead without direction
A form of semi-self-mutilation
Dragonfly collides with truth

Why can't you see me like I see you
Can't you feel me like I feel you
Can't you be with me tonight

I'll make it go away
[my dragonfly]

ok. those in bold were made for me. haha. dream on. but yeah, those lines are really things that's going through my head. here's another one...

SpongeCola
22

Halika na
Iyong lunurin ang problema't kalimutan
May tanong pa ba?
Di na kailangang mag-isip
Dahil bughaw ang ating langit

Malapit na
Akong matunaw
Puso ko't damdamin ay sumisigaw

Dahil ako'y nasasabik
Sa muli mong pag dampi saaking labi
Pagkat hanggang ngayo'y hinahanap-hanap parin
Ang iyong tamis
Sa tuwi-tuwina yeah

Ito na ang sandali
Asahan mong makikinig ng walang maliw
Di na kailangang pang itago ang nadarama't magduda
Matagal ka ng naiinip diba?

Dahil ako'y nasasabik
Sa muli mong pag dampi sa aking labi
Pagkat hanggang ngayo'y hinahanap-hanap parin
Ang iyong tamis
Sa tuwi-tuwina..

Malapit na
Akong matunaw
Puso ko't damdamin ay sumisigaw

Dahil ako'y nasasabik
Sa muli mong pag dampi sa aking labi
Pagkat hanggang ngayo'y hinahanap-hanap parin
Ang iyong tamis
Sa tuwi-tuwina..

another one from sponge cola. rarrrr. the only line that was bold. get it. yak. labo.

i really dunno why i feel the way im feelin' right now. i'm so hell confused. i wish the tears would stop. i wish i wouldn't be too sensitive. i wish i was not cursed this way. i wish that person would understand, but that's impossible. i wish i can be invisible and nobody would see me. i wish i never existed, cause even though people know that i do exist, they make me feel as though i don't.

i hate the fact that im feeling so achey for such a small thing.

NO. I'M NOT FALLIN'. NO.

32: not so fixed after all.

2005-03-15T11:41:00.000+04:30

parang masaya na kahapon eh. bakit magulo na naman yata? akala ko ok na eh. pero hindi ganon ung nakikita ko. sila macy, ok na talaga. eh si irene? pucha. mailang ba? wala na dapat ganyan eh. napag-usapan na lahat kahapon, meron na namang pahabol.

"may pagkakaiba ang pagdududa at pagaassume. sorry po talaga, sana mapatawad mo pa ko."

ok na nga diba? oo na, pinatawad na kita. pero bakit ang labo mo?

"hindi naman ako ung nag iwan eh, ikaw ung nagiwan. sorry sa kawalang ng tiwala. sorry."

for the nth time. okay na. hindi ako nangiiwan! tgnan mo nga to..

"ayy. hindi! i decyd! honeylabs prin kita! bukas na bukas, isuot mo na ulit ung name tag ko!"

"sure, madali naman ako kausap eh, basta ikaw."

"o cge na, hindi nako MASHADO magseselos, pero magseselos parin ako."

ang ayos ng usapan eh. sabay bigla ka nalang ganyan. wag mo ko rasonan na ako ang hindi namamansin. nauna ka.

argh.

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line 
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line 
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line 
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

-ryan cabrera
true

:'c

31: it's fixed

2005-03-14T19:24:00.001+04:30

"waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought."
-sam [a cinderella story]

wala lang. tumigil ung mundo ko nung una kong narinig yang line na yan. :) patama effect. ehem ehem. huaahaha.

ung problema with macy and irene fixed na. :) nagdecide kami mag divorce for like an hour, pero di ko din natiis. haha. asawa ko na siyang muli.

i don't wanna go into details, basta un. tapos na xa, and im glad.

irene: hindi naman ako ung nagiiwan eh, ikaw! salamat na din at naging honeylabs kita.

keavy: ano ba? auko na nga, asawa parin kita!

irene: haha, cge ba, madali ako kausap!

keavy: o cge, promise, hindi na ko MASHADO magseselos, pero magseselos prin ako!

irene: hehe, cge cge.

pasaway. :)

new layout

2005-03-13T19:42:00.000+04:30

while doing the lab report. i changed my layout. haha. please comment. :)

kanta muna.

2005-03-12T19:23:00.000+04:30

Ngiti

Verse I
Iyong ngiti ay naaninag ko,
Kitang-kita ko ang iyong dilaw na ngipin,
Ngunit ang iyong braces ay talagang nakakasilaw,
Biglang nagdilim ang aking paningin.

Chorus I
Oh di na ko makakita,
Ako'y minalas nga naman,
Asan ka na, oh asan?
Ako'y nabulag ng iyong ngiti.

Verse II
Nung isang araw, binisita mo ako,
Ang iyong boses, muling narinig,
At nang hawakan mo ang aking kamay,
Biglang sinabing, "di na kita mahal."

Repeat Chorus I

Bridge
Ngayo'y andito ako,
nanlilimos ng pera,
Oh pagbigyan niyo naman
Ang isang bulag na tulad ko.

Repeat Chorus I

Chorus II
Oh di na ko makakita,
Ako'y minalas nga naman,
Kailan kaya, uling makikita,
Ang ngiting handog mo sakin.

*clusi wrote the song. ang gandaaaaa. :) chords? D-A-Em-G astig.

betrayed.

2005-03-12T17:18:00.000+04:30

ate tin
i just wanna thank you for being there. you're simply the greatest mommy in the whole wide world. dumadating ka tlga every single time na kailangan kita. sa nangyayari sa mundo ko ngayon, ikaw lang makakapagbigay ng comfort na kailangan ko, at naprove mo na naman sakin na talagang mahal mo ko. mahal na mahal kita ate tin. mwah! :*

YOU:
be considerate about other people's feelings. hindi lang ikaw nasasaktan. wag kang self-centered. sabi ni ate tin, bgyan ko pa ng chance tong friendship na to, gagawin ko un. yes dear, im willing to drop everything off for the sake of our friendship. you, however, should do ur part. wala naman sanang gaguhan.

YOU:
tama na sabi eh. nasasaktan nako. lagi nalang siya. nagbago ka na talaga. tapusin na natin to. wala kang tiwala sakin. wala na kong pakielam. sobrang nasaktan mo na ko, tinake mo ung side nia agad eh. sayang. sayang talaga.

i'm currently feeling betrayed. thanks to the people who made me feel tah real friends still do exist. :)

ate tin, gerl, kaye, raych, mommy poi, kids and achays. mahal na mahal ko kayo. :)

lalo na c kaye at ate tin. :)

you guys make things real better. :)

keavy_nine: hayyy.
keavy_nine: keri ko pa ba ito ate tin?
chicco_kulit : yes, never forget, chin up. if no one will believe in you, i will.

i'm so depressed.

2005-03-11T16:11:00.000+04:30

kulang na kulang

sa tuwing magkasama
parang bale wala
nagmumukang hangin
dumaang bale wala
ni ayaw mong hawakan aking kamay

kulang na kulang ba
hindi pa ba sapat
inubos kong lahat panahon ko sayo
anong gagawin
di mo pinapansin
itong damdamin, aking paglalambing

minsan ako'y nakahalata
ika'y tulala
malalim ang iniisip
malayo ang tingin
aking nalaman
na bale sa iba
ang nilalaman ng iyong damdamin

kulang na kulang ba
hindi pa ba sapat
inubos kong lahat panahon ko sayo
anong gagawin
di mo pinapansin
itong damdamin, aking paglalambing

buong magdamag nag iisip kung bakit
paanong nangyari ito sa akin
ayaw mo na pala
bat di mo sinabi
nagsawa ka na
paano na

kulang na kulang ba
hindi pa ba sapat
inubos kong lahat panahon ko sayo
anong gagawin
di mo pinapansin
itong damdamin, aking paglalambing

kulang na kulang ba
hindi pa ba sapat
inubos kong lahat panahon ko sayo
anong gagawin
di mo pinapansin
itong damdamin, aking paglalambing

**eksaktong song para sa panahong ito. bakit ba kasi ganito. laboomz.

1: ano ba kasing problema?
2: *tahimik*
1: *insert person's name her*!
2: *tahimik parin*
1: ano ba kasing meron? bakit ka nagkakaganyan?
2: ewan ko.
1: kasi kung wala, bakit ka nagseselos, bakit ganito?
2: wala sabi. ang feeling mo.

grabe. bakit kasi siya ganyan. the fact na kung ano anong naiisip niya, diba pagpapakita niya yun ng kawalan ng tiwala.

nasasaktan ako kasi nagbago siya.
masyadong mabilis yung pagbabago.
nagulat ako masyado.

wala naman siyang pakielam eh.

froggie forg froggie morning..

2005-03-09T05:57:00.000+04:30

greeeeeeeeeeeeeeen.
21 na kaawa-awang mga palaka ang walang awa naming kinitilan ng buhay ngayon lamang umaga.
pinangalanan naming CP ni rachelle ang walang kamalay-malay na palaka namin.
huhuhuhu.
talk about morbid-ity there.
rarrrrrrrrrr.

computer lab, wala na namang ginagawa. goodluck to us.
andito si honeylabs knina, nabasa ung entry ko na yadah yadah yadah.
bwahahaha.
batang tiyanak.

macy: ewwww. mag ddissect na.
irene: yehey yehey!
macy: gusto mo mag dissect ng palaka?
irene: oo!
macy: gusto ko mag dissect ng tiyanak!

goodluck.
yak. puro goodluck.

heto na, heto na.
pupunta ko sa bahay ni iyayi later,
ayos layout.
rock on.

play prod sa friday,
musta naman.
sana hindi na magkalaglaglaglag ang crew.

keavy: lights on.
*sabay bukas ng ilaw at tutok ang spotlight kay raych na kumakapa sa sahig dahil hindi makita si poi.
raych: sorrrrrry.
keavy: lights off! isa pa! lights on!
*sbay si lights on at spotlight kay mommy poi na nangangapa sa sahig ng stage dahil di makita ang daan pababa.

goodluck talaga samin. bwahaha.
i had fun. :)

sobrang ang labo na ng entry na to mga boi.
babay na nga.

my cast: tired.

2005-03-07T20:32:00.000+04:30

wala kaming practice ngayon. pagod napagod na ang cast ko, pati ako pagod na. i guess pati crew pagod na rin. mejo lang kasi, wala kaming pahinga for 3 weeks? goodluck.

nakapasa ako sa glee! :) alto1/sop2!
yipee yipee! :)

1st screening plng un eh!

2 more to go!

away kmi ni honeylabs knina.. as usual.
habol siya, iwas ako.
sbay habol ako, iwas siya.

lintek.

siya: wala akong ginagawang masama
ako: kung wala, ipakita mo yang phone na yan.
siya: keavy!
ako: bahala ka.

depressed.

2005-03-05T20:13:00.000+04:30

irene_lukban : but i do care
keavy_nine: you don't
keavy_nine: if u do..
keavy_nine: it doesn't show.
irene_lukban : wel aq ung type n d mo tlga mhahalata e
keavy_nine: oo.
keavy_nine: at tlgang ndi ko nararamdaman.
irene_lukban : bkit may iba p b akng dpat pramdmn? e ikw lng nmn ang presnt q e.

iyakan na naman. badtrip. hate her. rarrrrrrr.

I told you to call me
You never remembered
I told you to be there
You never came
You think you're so perfect
Like there's nobody out there
But you don't care

I sold my illusions
Sold my emotions
Sold my convictions
And I left myself to drown
You think you're so perfect
Like there's nobody out there
But you don't care

We'll be smilling
We'll be laughing
And I'll be singing the whole way
We'll be walking
We'll be laughing pretending everything's ok
We'll be smiling
We'll be laughing
And I'll pretend that its okay
Its okay

You don't care

-criela

huhuhu. is berri sad. berri berri sad.

madur, madur.

2005-03-05T17:00:00.000+04:30

madur, madur
by Ved

madur madur,
are you dur?
madur madur,
i need you hur,
madur madur,
you is said you is dur,
madur madur,
but you is not hur,
madur madur,
i is hug my tidi bur,*
madur madur,
we is alone togedur,*
madur madur,
i really need you hur,
madur madur,
what is x squr?**
madur madur,
i is scured,**
madur madur,
your ghost is everywur,***
madur madur,
why is you not cur?**
madur madur,
i miss you forebur.

*contributed by camille paz
**contributed by patti
***contributed by keavy

pardon my language, is cold dullar. =)

the camille santos is make it, and i is contribute, together w/ the patti and mommy poi. =)

last night was really fun! we is all play.. i is spend time w/ the patti and the raych and we is laugh all over again!

patti: i is want an indian name director.
keavy: what is?
patti: i is want of pepa.
keavy:pepa?
patti: PEter and aPAla
keavy: *laugh*
patti: raycheeee! u is my mother!
keavy: huahahahaha
patti: im pepa! i always dream of be pepa!!!

the patti is really make us laugh! huahahaahah.

today was bad,
the honeylabs is make me depressed.
i is hate the honeylabs already, is always make me cry!
is very mana to the father hu is break mommy poi's heart always.

huhuhu.

the iyay is the best baby sister in the whole world, is always kampi to the ate keavy! =)
very good iyay! very good!

i is to chat first people.

oh and i forgot to say..

groupmates, i is impressed. =)

patay.

2005-03-03T17:56:00.000+04:30

tapos na glee club auditions. =) sana nakapasa ako, bukas lalabas ang results. =)

hinatid ako ni honeylabs. =) thanks hon. =)

mas knabahan pa daw xa sakin, ang kulitttt. =)

nagpractice kmi, waaaaaah. knakabahan parin ako. rarrrrrrrrr.
TDR na bukas. kaya namin to!

nahuli kami ni sir F knina sa 2nd flr caf, bawal dw magstay dun ng later than 6, malay ba namin? knuha niya ung ID ni gerl! kukunin namin bukas, kng may kakambal na offense, ako na bahala. ako na ang papasan sa offense.. huhuhu.

sorry gerl, wala rin akong idea na bawal eh.

emmo: kayo ba talaga?
keavy&irene: hindi noh!!!

computer class.

2005-03-02T06:34:00.000+04:30

wala lang. i'm done with my invitation, so i decided to blog. haha.. we had our PE this morning, ang saya! haha.. honeylabs is so dead stiff! bwahahahah. jokeness.

wala akng maicp. babay first.

mamyang gabi na.

fine.

2005-03-01T18:30:00.000+04:30

hindi ako pumasa sa banaag.

kit: it's a sign!
keavy: huh?
kit: esposa! magtaekwndo kna! magsama na tayo!

bwahahahahaha! benta talaga si esposo forever! niahaha.

pero un. nung auditions, wala ako dun. physically, nasa room ako, nag auaudition ung katawan ko, pero wala dun ung isip ko. ang labo.

ang lungkot, narealize ko na wala na ung "drive". parang, kng pmasa ako o hindi, ok lang. eh nung june, parang gagawin ko talaga lahat para pumasa.

hinintay ko to eh. sayang, nwala ung "passion" .
sana hndi nalang. nanghihinayang ako.

PLAY PROD.

march
2-lunch time, science cai
3-lunch time, 2-1, dismissal, science cai 3:30-7pm
4-lunch science cai, dismissal, 2-1 4-7pm
5-2-1, whole day. 8am-6pm
7-lunch and dismissal-2-1 4-7pm
8-lunch and dismissal-2-1 4-7pm
9-lunch science cai dismissal-2-1 4-7pm
10-lunch and dismissal-2-1 4-7pm

hectic ka ba?
walang mag aabsent ah.

deadline ng write ups para sa playbill sa friday.

salamat. :)

feeling down.

2005-02-28T20:51:00.000+04:30

feeling ko hindi ako pumasa sa banaag.
rarrrr. bakit kasi hindi ko ginalingan, sabay ngayon nagsisisi ako.
my mind was somewhere else,
rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i hate it.
i wanna pass.
pero mukang hindi magkakaganon.

ako: nagpromise ka! hindi mo tinupad!
siya: sorry na. naguiguilty nako.
ako: babagsak ako sa bio at banaag dhil sayo.
siya: shit. sorry. sorry.

...

2005-02-27T12:37:00.000+04:30

sorry for everything. i never wanted it to turn out this way. i just want you to know that i was sincere from the start. i loved you from the day you went to my classroom to give me those chocolates, babaw as it seems, yes, i loved you from that day on. i feel so guilty. i never wanted to hurt you this much, ironically, i'm doing it. and i want you to know that the fact that i'm hurtin' u kills me. im sorry. i dunno if you would ever believe me again, but i'm really really sorry.

"take a risk, take a chance, make a change and break away.."

*this was supposed to be posted last night. i almost broke down. things are okay now, im glad God fixed everything. i love you papa God. =)

negative energies attack.

2005-02-26T17:25:00.000+04:30

i feel bad. oh so bad. i don't wanna ruin people's lives or hurt their feelings, and ironically, trouble always adored me.

raych is always there for me whenever i feel like my whole world is falling apart, that's why i so love her. thanks so much bez, u know how much i love you right?

thanks to mommy poi, napagaan mo loob ko, thanks to cha, for the concern, tumawag ka pa talaga. mahal ko kayong dalawa. =)

okay, i'm in tears again. fuck.

im such a cry baby.

i arrived at agatha's house at about 9:40, i really don't want to go. i feel bad, i don't want the whole group to suffer because of my mood. but i'm the director, so i went anyway.

i thought everything was gonna turn out fine, i started a conversation [in doollar language] and everyone started talking too. we were all having fun, i forgot about some stuff..

then, everyone started doing something else, they went cooking and eating and watching tv upstairs etc... i was left alone in the dining table, watchin' tv. chris [the teddybear] joined me, i hugged him. then i started crying, some stuff suddenly came back. rarrrr.

nica sat with me when she noticed that i was crying, she asked me to stop, i tried hard, but the tears seemed to control me. gerl sat with us, and i asked them to come with me upstairs and stay at agatha's room, they went there with me, thanks nica, thanks gerl. =)

they asked me about the tears, and i told them the story...

nica: bakit hindi mo sinabi yung mga dapat mong sabihin? God knows na hindi katulad ng iniisip niya yung nangyayari.
gerl: sorry ah, can't relate, hindi naman nagkkwento si keavy sakin.
keavy: nica, alam mo yung nangyayari pag may kanchawan diba?
nica: oo, nagtataka ko kung bakit pinabayaan mo na magkaganyan, sbay ngaun affected ka naman mashado.
gerl: pabayaan mo na, matatapos na naman ang year.
keavy: that's the point.
nica: matagal na kasi dapat yan tinigilan.
keavy: masama ba kong tao?
gerl: gago.
nica: hindi..
keavy: eh bakit ganito? ayoko ng magulo.
nica: pnapahirapan ni Papa God yung mga mahal niya.
keavy: siguro mahal na mahal niya ko.
gerl: ako din kibi, love kita. *hug* tahan na.

then raych went in the room, gerl had to do some props stuff so she went out, nica wanted to leave raych and me alone, so she left.

raych: hoy! stop it. may sasabihin ako.
keavy: ano?
raych: hindi siya galit.
keavy: ah ako din, may sasabihin ako, masayang masaya ako ngayon.
raych: hindi un sarcastic bez, hanoh ba?!
keavy: hindi un possible.
raych: ano bang pinoproblema mo?
keavy: na alam kong magulo at may dapat akong sabihin pero ewan. hindi ako backstabber, *breaks down*
raych: oh teka, tuloy mo.
keavy: pag sumasama loob ko, sinasabi ko out loud o kaya naman hindi ako nagppretend na okay lang lahat. hindi ko kasi gusto yung ganon eh. nung nasaktan ako sa ginawa ni czari nung voting for venue, dba sinabi ko agad, kasi ayokong sa iba pa magsabi, sa kanya naman ako may problema eh..
raych: got ur point, i know you bez.
keavy: and it just hits me na parang it wasn't supposed to turn out that way. i never talked trash behind her back and that's what she's thinking, umpisa palang i begged them to stop it w/ the kanchawan eh, kung sila ung tatanungin mo, ssbhn nmn nila na mtgl ko na cla pnapatigil.
raych: na disappoint lang un, naiintindihan mo din siya diba? kung ganon ung info na dumating sayo, masasaktan ka din. gusto ko na tuloy siya kausapin..
keavy: ayoko na magsalita, kasi natatakot na ko gumalaw, baka may mali na naman akong gawin.
raych: tama na yan. ur so red na. gsto mo bang makita ka nila ng ganyan?
keavy: baka ndi nako respetuhin?
raych: ndi ka na mukang karespe-respeto bez!
keavy: gaga *tawa*

proceed to the sofa area

raych: kakausapin ka daw ni ken.
keavy: ayoko.
raych: bez! bakit?
keavy: eh ayoko eh.
raych: hindi tama yan.
keavy: ayoko. gusto mo ikaw nalang kumausap.
raych: ako?
keavy: please?
raych: sige, ako nalang.

agatha: kain na! papatayin ko yang n'sync pag ndi pa kayo kumain sa baba!

ken: keavy, pwde ba tayong mag-usap mamya?
keavy: ayoko.
ken: *please gesture*
keavy: oo na.

but the day passed and we weren't able to talk. maybe because i wouldn't know what to tell her if we were to talk. i dunno.

mindy: pinipilitil ko na nga gawing comical ang mga bagay, masyado kasing madaming negative energies sa araw na to.
keavy: lucy, andito ka kasi!

bahala na si batman.

bahala na talaga.

thanks to iyay for giving me a lift home! =)

apala: it's just that, everything's bearing down on me...

2005-02-25T21:32:00.000+04:30

keavy: hon, auditions na sa banaag, wag mong papasamain ung loob ko over the weekend ah?
irene: oo na, wala akng load.
keavy: good good.

ok. keavy is a real bitch. now the hidden actions became known. keavy is such a bitch and a backstabber. no, keavy is not a backstabber, she just loves hiding it. oh, maybe she really is a backstabber. keavy is dumb, she doesn't know how to use her brain, if she has one.

keavy: at least tayo walang problema sa group..
ken: oo nga.

sana sa group lang umiikot ang mundo ko, para totoong walang problema.

mama: mga konsumisyon lang kayo sa buhay ko.
keavy: *iyak* talaga?
mama: lintek. oo! tigilan mo yang internet na yan!
keavy: wait lang. tatapusin ko lang to..
mama: bilisan mo na jan.
keavy: konsumisyon ba talaga ako?
mama: oo. gusto mo lumayas? para mabawasan problema ko?
keavy: *yuko* *kausap sa sarili* oo na. teka lang ah.

ok. even mom would love to send me out. maybe if she had the chance, she'd kill me. and now, she goes screaming again while i'm here fixing some stuff. IMPORTANT STUFF. and she doesn't care a bit. fine. hate me mom, hate me.

1: bakit?
2: wala. hindi ka nakikinig sakin.
1: karma?
2: sipain kita jan eh!
1: nantraydor ka, tinraydor ka din.
2: nantraydor?!
1: hindi ba?
2: shit, yn ba iniicp niong lahat?!!

nasaktan siya, kaya wala siyang makitang positive sa buong pagkatao ko. lahat ng ginawa ko mali. meron nga naman akong choice, pero kinontrol ako ng emosyon ko. nagpacontrol ako sa emotions ko. oo na, kasalanan ko na lahat. aminado naman diba? at seryoso, nanhihingi tlga ko ng tawad sayo. totoo to. hindi ko alam kung maniniwala ka pa sakin, pero isang linggo? baka naman pwde? it's up to you. i'll respect watever decision ul make.

to someone:
sana hindi ikaw. sana hindi ikaw. kasi kung ikaw, sobrang masasaktan ako. baka maging instant na kaung dalawa ung mawala. ay hindi, sige, kung ikaw un, sabihin mo nalang sakin, para hindi lumala. aminin mo nalang, para hindi msyadong masakit.

sobrang sama ko bang tao? wala ba kong kwentang kaibigan? mahal ko yung mga kaibigan ko, more than myself. but at this very moment, i feel like i'm the bitch-EST of them all.

somebody shoot me?

banaag. na naman. =)

2005-02-24T16:47:00.000+04:30

monday, feb. 28, 2005, auditions na naman! rarrrrrrrrr.
ang bilis! parang kelan lang, nangangatog pa ko sa kaba, sbay ngaun, mangangatog na naman ako sa kaba! rarrrrrrrrr.
goodluck nalang sakin!

sa mga tao jan, i need your prayers, alam niyo naman kung gaano ka importante to sakin diba? gusto ko talagang makapasa eh. pagdasal niyo ko ah? salamat! =)

ayun lang naman. =)

nanood kami ng sunny side up, magaling! pero ndi ko natapos! =) henewei, kasama ko c gerl, c kaye and si honeylabs! =) astigness. sweetness. =) kasma ko din c roselle, namiss ko ung bruhang un! enjoy naman! =)

emma: ur not AWOL [awol] keavy, cess, iyay and cheky: EYWOL!!!

2005-02-23T19:19:00.000+04:30

haha. labo labo labo! AWOL ng AWOL si emmo goyle nung recording, EYWOL sabi eh! niahahaa.

awwww. go to the sad thing. michelle didn't make it. awww. ang lungkot. silang dalawa lang ni ate chreesy ung binoto ko na talagang all out, sbay nagkaganon pa. ang badtrip, dapat siya un eh! siya talaga dapat! i just feel bad kasi naman. ahhhh basta. rarrrrrrrrr.

MICHELLE
love ka parin ng green batch, for sure.=) napakita mo na dabest batch rep ka, alm kong mpapakita mo un sa council, pero ndi ka nila bnigyan ng chance, watever the reason may be. still, love kita. =) mwah. =)

moving on, tapos na kami sa radio drama, sound effects nalang! si iyay na bahala! thanks to iyay for helping us out! haha, chaka sa food and transpo! *hug* ur the greatest! =)

i just finished fixing the blocking stuff that is to be submitted 2mrw. haha, sinipag naman daw ako! pero ndi ko pa nagagawa ung math hw. rarrrrrrrrr.

gusto ko na ng load sa sun. wala na kong pantext kay honey ko, kc naman, smart xa. rarrrrrr. badtripnesss.

waaaaah. im confused. labooomz.

keavy: nasan na ba siya?!
tao: irene?
keavy: huh?
tao: hnahanap mo si irene?
keavy: hindi noh. si iyay.

yak. wala lang.

heto na naman

2005-02-22T18:41:00.000+04:30

after so many centuries, nag update din ako.
haha. im feelin' really dead tired/stressed out/frustrated or watever you call this feeling.
sometimes i just find myself staring at mere nothingness. whew! labo.

habang buhay na yata ang play prod na ito! parang kinakain niya ang lahat ng oras ko! whew!
don't get me wrong, i really enjoy tiring myself especially if it has something to do with the theater, but then again.. *sighs* i just wish my hardwork would pay off, and the cast's hardwork too.

nagworkshop kuno kami kahapon, para makondisyon sila. =)
muka namang nag enjoy sila, kaya lang habang humihirap ang task, parang tumataas din ang kilay nila.

mejo inaayos na namin ang music stuff. waaaaaaaaaaaah. tama na!

haha. napurga nako sa play prod. ayoko na. bwahahaha.

si honeylabs, war kami. kasi nagseselos ako kay gerleen! huaahahahah. ndi ko xa pnapansin buong morning, pero nung THE, goodluck sa pagka easy-to-get ko, sinubuan nia lng ako ng pasta na gnwa nila.. prng ok na. bow.

tapos na din nmn ung photo shoot para sa picture thingy sa english.. ansaya!=)

waaaaaaaaah. im tired, recording naman bukas para sa radio drama! tpos review kc bio LT na. rarrrr.

isang matinding update..

2005-02-22T17:25:00.000+04:30

entry nung 16..

happy birthday to my everdearest besty michelline postrado aparicio!=)

wowoweee mic, 5 years na ba kitang besty? solid! =) yan naman eh! =) sna nagustuhan mo ung surprise namin sayo at hindi lang ang panghihinayang sa 5000 and isipin mo! haha.. jokeness. =)

ayun, medyo nakakabobo ung araw, kasi nga kaarawan ng besty ko, eh nung umaga taranta nako kasi ang aga ng bus, so naiwanan ko ung cellphone ko mga bez. walang ka plano plano, pinanindigan ko nalang yung plano namin ni sarah nung huli kaming nag usap.. 4pm sunduin ko xa sa jasms. =)

nagbalagtasan and all pero lumilipad ung isip ko, nasa surprise party. masaya yan. ayun, mga 3:15 siguro na dismiss kami. =) tpos, nagkita kmi ni cha sa may vendo ng mga 3:30, tgapagligtas si cha ng buhay ko kanina, cellphone ng bayan ang phone nia.. huahaha =)

nabaliktad na ung plans, late na nmn kasi si mama, as usual! nauna na sunduin si coleen, so pinasundo ko na din sila sarah and julia. haha. ayun, dumaan kami sa red ribbon at natio, bmili ng cake at balloons! =)

after nun, proceed na kami sa house ni mic, si ate aree ang nadatnan ko, feel at home naman daw ako. tpos, inayos namin ung house, ung balloon ballons. niahaha. tpos, gmwa kami ng sort of banner na may nakasulat na "happy birthday mic!" children's party ka ba?! haha. basta, ayun. hanlabo.

nung sinisindihan na namin ung candles, bglang dmating na cla mic, ksma nia cla kit at angel. haha.. mega kanta kanta. tpos un, tambay lang muna.

tpos, sunod naman, dmating na ung mga boys, as usual ang ingay ingay nilang lahat, pero masaya! huahaha. nakakainis si kuya ayrl, pinutok nia ung green balloon ko! hmph! pinutok nila ni paolo. bad3p gs2 ko pa man din un iuwi! rarrr. pero ayun, tambay lng sa labas, nag gigitara c imman nd c papa joma. haha, ang kulit, wlang nabubuong kanta. puro lang sila simula sabay tawa. laboomz.

tpos c imman ay allergic kay paolo santos, yak. naalala ko lang. dba cha?=) 22g2g sila sa friday sa jasms, sana makahabol ako. gusto ko manood eh, tpos direcho kaming UP, 22g2g ate ni mikey. =) inuman ata sa sabado, bitbit ko na cha. =) parang noon si mic ung nag BI sakn, tpos ako, c cha naman ang recruit ko. =) BWAHAHAHA.

bsta, over-all enjoy naman. =) sana masaya si mic, haha. ayan, kakatext lang niya, salamat daw ng matinding matindi. =) yehey! happy xa! =) ang swerte nia na ako ang besty nia! jokeness. =)

iba talaga pag andun ang boylets, ang gulo. masayang magulo.

salamat kay sarah sa pagtulong sa lahat lahat, kay chacha sa pagsama. =) kay julia para sa pagaayos ng "kayamanan box" nia. haha. at sa lahat ng dumalo! =) napasaya niyo si mic, =) salamat din kay ate wen at tita wen sa iba pang preparations na kylngan sa house, tpos sa food na linatak ng boys. at sa tatay na rin ni mic, kay greg naman, bad ka! ndi ka nagsulat!=)

ayun, sige late na. may gagawin pako. paalam.

entry kahapon.

i saw the fear in her eyes,
i tried to look at her as though i don't care a bit about her feelings and thoughts.
i made her feel as though she owed me an apology,
she did.
she apologized.

she owed me no apology at all,
i don't care about the time.
i don't care if she'll be staying the whole day with me or just drop by for a minute or two.
time doesn't matter,
only her presence does.

she was physically present,
but her mind's somewhere else.
it bothered me.
i dunno in what way,
but it did.
not in the professional matter of course.

who is she thinkin' of?
[duh. what's w/ the question, i certifiably-so know the answer.]
i mean,
yes, i can make her stay for as long as i want her to,
to do work stuff of course [or i can use that as an alibi]
but i never can capture her being the way the one she's thinkin' of can.

so amazing,
even without that someone's presence, she still manages to ruin my day.
amazing. bravo!

" it's confusingly amazing... bitter and tainted... the picture you painted to me... i guess you're the only one that nobody changes..."

"selfishly, im in love with you..."

nothing shakes like shakey's, pre-valentine's day rants and senti modes.

2005-02-13T18:19:00.000+04:30

yan naman eh. red ang kulay ng entry na to! =)
nanood ako ng shakey's v-league kanina, live! =) ansayaaaa. kasama ko sila jed, coleen, nikki and ian. thanks guys, i enjoyed. :D

CHAMPION ANG DLSU LADY ARCHERS! =)
yan naman eh. =)

awardees:

best blocker: maureen penetrante
best libero: shermain peñano
best attacker: roxanne pimentel
best reciever: mary jean balse
higher pointer: cherry rose macatangay
MOST VALUABLE PLAYER: MICHELLE CAROLINO

wuhoooo! san ka pa! =) MVP si idol! best libero pa c crush! wuhoooo! =) galing galing! =)

ayan. pula ang font ko dahil araw na naman ng mga puso bukas. yadah yadah yadah. at ang astig, bglang 2mugtog ang the greatest story ever told sa media player ko. rarrr.

loveless ako. hindi naman ito ang unang araw ng mga puso na wala akong katipan, pero malungkot ako. kasi meron dapat. nakakamiss lang yung pakiramdam na may minamahal. kadiri. mushy..

teka, speaking of mushy-ness. lol. may naalala ako.

ako: ginagawa ko to lahat kasi i care for you, ayoko na nasasaktan ka.
irene: ako din naman eh, nagkecare ako sayo.
ako: yuk. mushy.
irene: oo nga.

kahapon yan eh. kadiri. basta un, ui someone.. miss na kita. haha. wala ka ding lovelife, pareho tayo. naaalala ko dati, pareho tayong walang lovelife kaya nalulong tayo sa isa't isa. huahahaa. ang saya.

sa nakaraan:
thanks for everything. i mean it. experience indeed is the best teacher. you played such a big part in my life. i wouldn'y want things to happen in any other way. thank you.

sa kasalukuyan:
i'm still hurtin'.. but just wait, this'll end soon. temporary insanity lang ang nagdrive sakin na mahalin ka. sandali nalang at masasama ka na sa unang category. haha.

sa hinaharap:
sana pag turn mo na, wala nang luha.

senti mode guys. kadire. i'm stressed out. i'm tired. i'm overwhelmed. all at the same time.

trust me. the feeling sucks.

brrrr.

2005-02-12T20:02:00.000+04:30

FEB 11, 2005

happy day today!=) haha. =)

nung morning practice sa house ni agatha para sa play prod. =) as usual, wla na namang magandang development. bwaahahahahha. ang amazing ng house ni agatha, may pool. gsto ko dun tumira!! =)

morning pala excited nako sa date namin ng honey ko. =) haha. ang saya. ang laboomz.

tapos un, dapat 5:30 nasundo nako ng nanay ko, but then again, mga 6 nia nako sinundo, sumabay samin si mommy charm. =) eh un, txt na ng txt c honeylabs kc nga 6 ung usapan namin at 6:30 na wala pa rin ako! huahahaha. eh naalala ko pa c emma, so dumaan pa kami sa flower shop,=) haha, binilan ko siya ng white-purple-white flowers, haha.. alam kong pink gusto niya, pero walang pink eh!

ayun, pagdating dun, nakita ko c ate arlene! awwww. i misssssed her! =) tapos pati si ate sam! =) hahaha.

edi un, pmasok na kami ni mommy charm, nasight ko agad si honeylabs, ktbi nia sa kamu. =c rarrrr. tpos, pnalayas ko c kamu sa upuan! bwahahahah *demonyita ako, asawa ko un eh*. ksma din namin sila diane, mindy at roz. sympre pacute naman silang tatlo nung nakita nila ung flowers ko for emma, sana daw sila din meron bukas! niahahaha. in love lahat ng babae sa flowers. watttah?! niahahah. mindy, bbgyan kta ng isang boquet ng damo, promise! =) huahahhaha. chaka isang kalachuchi, kay roz at diane naman, santan! =)

ang galing ng gleeee! =) nakakaiyak ung sa seniors.. awwww. =c ate macy, you were amazing! =) dani! dabam ka! =) emmo! isa ka pa! galing galing! =)

paalam na aking mahal, kay hirap sabihing, paalam na aking mahal, masakit isipin na kahit nagmamahalan pa, puso't isipa'y magkaiba, baka hindi lang laan sa isa't isa

si honeylabs amazaed na amazed kasi may disney part. tngin pa xa ng tngin sa mga babae niyang pakalat-kalat. ok lang, ako parin ang asawa! huaahahahha! =)

ayun, ang galing galing din ng lablab ko!=) go criz! =) si kaye din! bianca and thea, you guys were amazing! =) si ja din pala! =)

bsta un, after nung concert, umakyat akong stage para ibigay kay emma ung flowers!=) haha. ansaya! =) after nun, we went out na. =)

guess what honeylabs and keavy did? hahaha. ^_^ naglaro kami ng ring around the rosy. =) pnagusapan namin ang pagkakilig nia dun sa mary poppins song. huaahahahha. jokeness. basta, masaya talaga kasama si honeylabs! ^_^ para kong bata! ^_^

tpos un, after namin mag liwaliw, uwian blues na! hinatid ako nila honey sa car ko, haha. sabi ba nmn ni ma, "kmuka ni honeylabs si *personwhomustnotbenamed* ah." shut up mom. niahahaha. asaran on da go naman kami ng nanay ko on the way home. huahahaha.

bukas ulit! ^_^

feb 12, 2005

ok. the day was oh so sucky. people were pissed off with each other. everyone's saying something bad about everyone else. talk about shit there.

i arrived at mcdo katips earlier than everyone else, i had training, so i'm like dead tired.i saw some jasms people there, they were staring! rarrr. i hate the feeling.
then ken arrived, we went to some store to buy her 24/7 card, when we were about to cross, we exchanged places, she said she wants to be on the dangerous side of the road. aww. labshoo tots. =)

basta, the day was all shitttty. i dnt wanna go through all the details anymore.

everything was messed up when we arrived at iyay's place, we weren't doing anything productive, everyone's pissed off, so am i. i started crying. just felt how irresponsible i can get.

we went upstairs, so that we can start with the props. we were recording and all then something happened downstairs. shempre, i was so clueless because we were at the 3rd flr. rarrrr. something happened downstairs, ruined my honey's day. i wish i was there, justine begged me to stay out of it, so i did. but i felt bad.

to someone:

you know who you are. think things over, think real hard. THINK THINK THINK. think hard before speaking, think hard before doing things. things that have passed can never be undone. be careful with your actions, be careful with whom you mess up with. i never thought you can be like that. hell, ur so different. people were shouting it out to me, that you've always been that kind of person, i never believed them, not until now. not until you made me see who you really are. superiority complex? shut up. people would always find reasons for their wrong doings. fix urself, ur damn broken. don't act as though the world would kneel down before if you'd tell them to, i wouldn't do so. i'm startin' to hate you, i don't want to, believe me i don't. just look straight to this point, people wouldn't hate you if you do things right. THINK.

hay. bad day, nevertheless, ok pa din naman. i was with honeylabs and mommy naman eh. oh so perfect!Ü

i was w/ MC, emma, jus, nimo, mommy and honey during the sayawatha concert. enjoy.Ü

isa nalang to:

tignan mo muna ung sarili mo, ano nga bang mali sayo? kitang kita dude, ayusin mo na. baka magsawa na lahat ng tao sa ugali mo.

kaboringan.

2005-02-09T19:12:00.000+04:30

Take the quiz: "what kind of girlfriend are you? (girls only)"

perfect
you are absolutely perfect. your boyfriend means the world to you, and your determined to keep him forever. your doing a great job, keep it up :)

Take the quiz: "Are You Bisexual, Straight, or Lesbian? (Very, very Accurate if you answer honestly. Girls please.)"

You're Bi!
You are bisexual! You find yourself attracted to both sexes, even if you are kind of partial to one or the other.

loko yun ah. haha.

wearing jersey number 9, from de la salle university...

2005-02-09T09:21:00.000+04:30

MICHELLE CAROLINO!

the shakey's v-league is just so dead amazing! i just can't miss any game! ANIMO LA SALLE! the carolino sisters are so impressive, you see passion everytime they hit the ball. amazing.

pictures:
carolino sisters
shermain penano
maureen penetrante
manilla santos
desiree hernandez
chie saet

sea games ata to eh. anjan un carolino sisters. =)
sea games, national team. =)

rarrr. it's startin' to become an addiction again. i'm going back to it. i'm missing the old times. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. saturday lunch outs, going to different schools to compete almost every weekend, achieving victory and expiriencing failures, i'm missing it.

The sound of fast moving feet,
Is our life's natural beat.
The sound of the ball slamming to
the ground,
Is the one thing that makes our
hearts pound.
You never know where the ball will
go,
You have to move quick and go with
the flow.
This is it - the match winning point,
We all feel it - in every bone and
joint.
The server grunts as she slams the
ball,
6 girls ready waiting for the call.
The ball flies up soaring over the
net,
It's passed to the front - a perfect
set.
The hitter lines up testing all of her
skill,
She jumps high - hits it hard -
another kill.
The crowd cheers as they jump in
the stands,
The girls jump and snap like 6
rubber bands.
We get these feelings every time that
we play,
And if you ask us, this is what we will
say:
Volleyball is our sport it makes us fly,
Volleyball is our LIFE,
Until the day we die.

hell, what is going on? what's up with me. i'm startin to be dead sentimental. i just wanna play again. i wanna be part of the team again. whew. quite impossible.

i would always go around telling people that hey, i wanna join the team again for exemption purposes, but hell no. i just wanna be there, the exemption is no biggie, i just miss everything about being a player.

As the bus bounces us along,
I listen to the talks of my fellow
players.
Some loud, some soft, butall pleasant.
To myself,
I think about
how grateful I am,
To have the
teammates that I do.
I believe my
thoughts echo Into the minds of
others on this bus.
A team unites as one.
As we progress to this stage of one,
We learn and grow together.
We arethere for one another,
Sometimes laughter, sometimes tears,
Butthats what helps us become stronger.
We are just like a sister to each and every one of us.
On the court is where it all falls down to.
Even though at times were not at the top of our game,
We can play like pros.
Our pats on the back and slaps on the hand,
Is what helps each other move on
from one lousy mistake to another,
And then on the better things.
As a whole,
whether on the court or off,
We are becoming a team, And
thats what really counts.

rarrr. those were the days. i miss volleyball. though i tried to deny it, it just kills me seeing people play with so much passion.

i remember the very first time i stepped on the playing court, i had so much of it. passion. i had so much drive. i badly wanted to get in the team, that was like 6 years ago. 2 years later, i got in. i was part of a winning team, on my first year in the team, we got 6 golds in a row, it was just amazing.

"dapat hindi ko sinabi sayo na may potential ka, dapat hindi ko sinabing magiging magaling ka, kasi nung narinig mo yun, hindi mo na ginustong gumaling pa. mali yung pagkakarinig mo, akala mo, sinabi kong mgaling ka na, pero hindi, sabi ko gagaling ka pa. ikaw yung pinaka determined na makapasok sa team eh, pero nung nakapasok ka na, naging masaya ka na sa pagpasok lang."

ok, i'm starting to hear his voice again. those words were the harshest words i ever heard from anyone. he's an angel, i looked up to him. when i was just startin', i tried to impress him in any way possible, and he told me that i never needed to show off, he has the power to see everything that lies in an individual's soul. he saw the passion burning in my eyes, he allowed me to get in his team and it was such a great honor. but then, those words came from him. and the bad part is that he's just so right. i'm such an asshole, a mediocre.

this summer, we're planning to have a reunion. among them, i'm the only one who is not playing for any team anymore. but still, im excited. im gonna see them again! my old teammates! the people i once called "LIFE".

i miss volleyball and everything about it. rarrrrr. i'll be playing again, soon.

pahabol!

2005-02-08T17:00:00.000+04:30

ang kyut namin kanina! pics namin ni emma!Ü

tra la la la la la la

2005-02-08T15:01:00.000+04:30

tra la la. andaming nag aadd sakin sa friendster na hindi ko kilala, nahihiya ako itanong kung sino sila, so bale.. hindi ko nalang inaaccept. lol. loreen, salamat sa pag correct nung DEFFERENCE thingy. lol. kahiya. pero in fairness, ikw lang ang talagang nag explore sa layout ko. lol.

girls at the center week ngayong week, boring boi. pero mas ok kesa naman sa classes.

ok,mom was qualified for the boracay promo dun sa kanyang networking, so we're going to boracay!!! =) yipeeee!

outifits nga jan!
blue na top and wrap around, la lng.
two-piece na purple, dream on.
pretty naman.
black two-piece w/ touches of pink.
THE BEST FIT!=)

yipeeeee.

haha. but then again march 11,12,13 kmi dun. goodluck. week before exams.

ayoko pmasok bukas! tinatamad ako mehn!

for someone.

2005-02-06T21:03:00.000+04:30

i wanted to hate her so bad, i have all the reasons to do so, but i just can't.

she knew everything that i went through, she knew the feelings i had for that person, but then again she picked that person over me. they were denying the fact that they're together, but hey, even so, they kept on showing the world how much they enjoy each other's company. talk about bitterness there.

i hate the fact that she's always been nice to me, through some conversations, she never failed to show me how much she cared. her words always amazed me, they contain magic. i hate the way i turned to her in those times wherein i badly needed comfort, and she offered nothing but love.

yes, i wanted to hate her, but i always missed the old times. those times when i was still her favorite, she always made me feel special, i was her only princess.

A: mabait lang yun para makabawi dahil sa mga ginagawa niya sayo.
B: oo nga.
C: hindi noh.
A: hindi ako naniniwala sa actions niya, alam niya lahat, tapos di manlang siya naiilang sayo?
C: hindi naman sila eh, bkt siya maiilang?
B: duh.
C: eh..
A: gago ka ba o tanga?
C: none of the above.
A: hindi ka ba nakakafeel ng pagkaasar?
B: sus, kng hindi, preho na kayong plastic.
C: tama na nga yan. wag na natin siya pag usapan. mas madami lang nasasabi niyong masama eh.
A: pucha, kampi kami sayo, sabay ikaw, kampi sa kanya, wake up dude.
C: ah.. basta. stop.

i wanted to hate her so bad, i just can't, i never could.

she's been one of the greatest big sisters i've had, a very inspiring friend, a great drive for excellence, she never uttered a single word hat'd turn me down, how can i hate her?

all i can do is love her back.

God help me, i miss her.

ansama ko talaga.

finally!Ü

2005-02-06T10:59:00.000+04:30

im so dead happy!=) finally! this one's finished! tagboard, comments stuff, layout and all!=) yipeeee!

at least.=) i feel so accomplished! this is so fun!=) haha.. laboomz! ipamamalita ko na xa!=) jokeness!=)

almost done..Ü

2005-02-04T18:34:00.000+04:30

this stuff is almost done!=)
yipeeee. i still need to to some finishing touches..
wahahhaa.
almost done almost done almost done!=)

i'll figure out kung pano lagay ung pics..
tah tah.=)

2005-02-04T18:07:00.000+04:30

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

1: first entry.

2005-02-01T15:20:00.000+04:30

here i go again. new blog. i'll fix it soon.